Catch-22. Narcissistic turned Pive-Aggressive.?

All right now. Just because you posses some NPD traits does NOT mean you qualify for the disorder. You could have any personality disorder/mental disorder really. I think you have to meet five of the diagnostic criterea for that one, but that might be BPD, I'm not sure which. Yes, NPD comes from extremely LOW self esteem and the need for other to vlidate you. I don't know, you could just have low self esteem. Really you don't feel EMPATHY for ANYONE?? You never hear a tragic story and have a reaction to it at all? Go see a therapist and a psychiatrist ASAP because if you DO have a PD and you ACTUALLY WANT HELP then you can absolutely get it! Many people suffering from personality disorders would RARELY look inward and think something is wrong with them, and once you can manage to do that, you can get help and change, honest. You might just have low self esteem though, or anything, so go see someone who can help you! The fact that you WANT to change absolutely means that you CAN and that's incredible. But yeah, be compionate at the expense of your own happiness, if you can't please yourself, try and please other people. At one time I realized that nothing would make me happy(LONG TIME AGO, I am much better now) so I should probably stop being selfish and at least contribute SOMETHING if nothing worked for me, I was screwed anyway, but I could make a difference for someone else, though that may be difficult for someone with no empathy to wrap their mind around. Good luck, get help.