Borderline personality disorder...PLEASE HELP ME ITS SERIOUS?

I have it as well, and I have had these thoughts too, I mean I don't have a husband, so I can't help with that part, but I would say its okay to fantasize, everyone does it. I mean as long as you still have feelings for him and don't rely on your fantasies for ual pleasure, then I personally think its fine. Or maybe they aren't fantasies, but its okay to look as long as you don't take it further that you would with another man. BPD can be hard, trust me I know, but hang in there. Its so unpredictable, and confusing but theres not much you can do about it soo stick with ur fam. Good Luck....I really mean it!